I've been off work all week. I know when I get back to the office on Tuesday, everyone is going to ask me, "Well, did you get all caught up on your rest?" With my responsibilities to my parents and other projects, everyone knows I have a lot on my plate. It seems lately, the more I have to do, the more paralyzed I begin to feel, and I just can't relax.
I might lay down for a Sunday afternoon nap, but I feel guilty about it because of all that needs to be tended to. I've been thinking, and I'm sure I'm not the only one to think this, that if I had less to do, I would be more rested.
But a surprising thing happened this week. I have worked hard, harder than I probably would have had I been at the office. I've been getting caught up on my to do list, checking items off one by one. There have been some pretty large projects on that list. One would think I would be exhausted as hard as I have been working. And yes, I am pretty tired physically, but amazingly I feel much more rested mentally and spiritually. The to do items being eliminated from my mind have freed up space for mental and spiritual rest.
It is a bit like this photo I took of a love seat that was for sale at a tea room I recently visited. It looks like a fabulous place to sit, maybe even pick my legs up off the floor and rest a bit, but the pillows have overtaken it, and made it impossible to use as anything other than a pretty thing to look at. My to do list has been like the pillows on the love seat, distractions that are simply in the way, keeping me from relaxing. Getting rid of them one by one, has created a soft place to lie down.
Jesus says to come to him for rest. He doesn't say sit there and wait, and I'll bring rest to you. So, I think for me, action has proved to be more restful than sitting still waiting for the items on my list to disappear on their own.
I'm joining 5 Minute Friday where we write for 5 minutes flat. Today's theme is REST.