Every morning off to work I pull out of my driveway, turn left, turn right, turn left, turn right, turn left, and then right on to the highway. It’s all a blur after that. I’m a dreamer by day and waste too much time with my thoughts. I get to work and don’t even remember the 30 minute drive there because I’ve been so lost in my thinking. It’s not always just thinking or wishing or hoping that occupies me while I drive, often times it’s listening to God speak. I’ve talked often of the times God taps on my heart while I’m behind the wheel. In fact, probably most of the inspiration I pour out with this keyboard began in the driver’s seat of a Honda. Leaving work yesterday I pulled out of the parking lot and turned left, then right onto the highway. Twasn’t long and deep thoughts of the trouble began to occupy my time. The thing that plagues me that I can’t seem to get a grip on, that I can’t seem to control or stop spun a web in my mind that got me all tangled up. He never stays silent for long.
“Every time you yield to Satan he will keep coming back for more.
Every time you yield to the Holy Spirit he will keep coming back for more.
The choice is yours. Who do you want strengthened in your life?
If you will remember that each time you are tempted, you have a choice. Your choice either diminishes the power of the Holy Spirit in your life causing the bonds to become tighter OR it diminishes the power of Satan in your life causing the bonds to loose. Eventually the bonds will strangle you or they will fall off completely. The choice is yours.”
Suddenly that tangled up web in my mind simply unraveled. It was all so clear to me that I didn’t even have a question to ask. It’s a matter of sin. It’s a matter of obedience. It’s a matter of who’s Lord of my life. He got rid of any opportunity for rationalization. He gave me the cold hard facts and now I know what I have to do. Obedience isn’t just one response to one command; it’s a journey of overcoming. And in how to overcome, he left me with some encouragement . . .
“Sacrifice thank offerings to God, fulfill your vows to the Most High, and call upon me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you and you will honor me.”
1 John 5:3-5
“This is love for God: to obey his commands. And his commands are not burdensome, for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith. Who is it that overcomes the world? Only he who believes that Jesus is the Son of God.
Sometimes in life I’m sprinting, other times I’m struggling to walk and then find I just want to crawl because it’s so much easier. Thank you God for being slow to anger and abounding in love. Thank you for never growing weary as I earnestly seek to overcome. Thank you for not making me do it alone.
Come Holy Spirit I need thee. Come sweet Spirit I pray.
Photograph: taken while on a two hour drive in the country with lots of time to dream and listen to God talk.